The Not So Talked About Topic

Hello! I hope everyone is having a great week!

    I wanted to give you guys a little life update. I get married in 79 days, I'm so excited. My fiance right now is currently working in Oregon and I live in Arizona, so we have to do that whole long distant engagement, um gross! But I am very thankful for it because the distant also pulls him and I together. The only way we communicate right now is through phone calls. We both have very busy work and school schedules so we look forward to those nightly phone calls. 

    This weeks lesson was very unique, we talked about sexual intimacy and family life. I thought to myself how ironic we have this lesson when I am a couple months away from getting married. 

    There were a couple things that stuck out to me this week and they were, that sometimes a connection is harder to make than you think, love is amazing, and its okay to be different than everyone else. 

    I want to first talk about the connection. I didn't realize that a lot of people deal with making a connection on that level. But it makes so much sense. This is something we are talking about being one hundred percent vulnerable with someone. You know you trust them, but it goes deeper than that. I feel like I have sympathy for those who do have a harder time with making that connection. I myself find it extremely hard to open up to anyone. I really really have to trust to be able to let the real me come out. I have had a really hard childhood, so I protect my life at all cost. I dont want to come in and shake it up again. I have talked to my fiance about this because I am such a private person. But I am so glad that we had this lesson, it has opened my eyes. I was suggested to read the book, " And they were not ashamed". Im excited to get a view on something that worries me for the future. 

    I have seen love in my life portrayed in my life so many different ways. But one way that I did not see was between a mom and dad. My parents are divorced so I did not grow up with seeing there love. This makes me so excited to start my life with my fiance and when we start to have our own kids, they will be able to see how much we love each other. I dont want a day to go by that my kids dont think, " Man, Dad and Mom really love each other!". Im so excited for that phase of life to begin. I know that it is in a few years. My fiance and I have both agreed that we wont start having kids til 3 to 4 years after we are married. We know how important that alone time is with each other and we want to value that time. 

    In class we talked a lot about the stereotype to what your first time should be as a couple. Im glad that my teacher talked about how it is okay to not have that stereotypical night. It is important to have that love and trust, so it is okay if things lead up to it. Im glad that he said that because a lot of women just think that men are so eager to get married because of the sex. It is super important to talk to your future spouse about the expectations that will happen or wont happen that first night or week. Communications is key, especially when we are dealing with something so vulnerable and intimate.